As you probably know Kausthub is in Argentina teaching a seminar, today we have decided to cancel the last part of it. And I ask him to face the group and tell them that we are cancelling and why.
And I now he is also cancelling all the other seminars in this trip and he decided to go back to india for starting to heal himself
I have to be honest with you he face the students in a very correct and honest way, and he explain that the reasons why he is cancelling is because he has commit some mistakes in the past, and he is seeing that he has problems that need to be resolve before continuing with the teaching. I am just given you a very short summery of what he has said. Then he left the room and I stood in front of my student answering some more questions that they have. All my students they really appreciated Kausthub sincerity.
It is look very clear to me that the change has already started however he will need much more than this to really change and heal himself and for that I am here to support you Kausthub in many dimensions and without any hesitation but without neglecting the situation and the trouble and suffering some of your past action has caused
I also agree with —— that blind faith is not useful at this moment and this blind faith will not help Kausthub to change, real sraddha is more useful in my eyes, accepting that there are some toxins within him that must be removed. And I will be there for him to help him in this process standing very strongly, and also I will be there also to ensure myself that this old samskaras are not there anymore otherwise I will fight with him.
Dear Kausthub I have not doubts that you are a ruby.
Thanks to all of you
From: firstname.lastname@example.org [mailto:email@example.com] On Behalf Of —– ——
Sent: Monday, September 17, 2012 3:35 PM
Subject: Re: [SANGA] my thoughts at this moment
—– you make complete sense.
I have been accumulating all of this- what everyone is saying for the past several days. I am listening to you all and staying open. I want to hear you. I want to listen- not so much talk.
Sometimes I think that I need to know more details- sometimes I don’t think it matters – and maybe I know anyway.
What I feel so strongly is that the members of this sanga have so much integrity. We are approaching this with our best. I trust in this.
I am here fully for all that lays before us.
On 2012-09-17, at 2:06 PM, —– —– wrote:
at this moment i feel very, very tired, but also strong in some strange way. It has been many days now with almost no sleep and I spent many, many hours talking to some of you, to students and to Kausthub. I feel like I am in the middle of a war.
The time that I am facing will probably be the hardest one in my life. To be able to look my students in their eyes, to face my family, my friends and my society with the knowledge of what has happened around Kausthub.
I am so glad to have you around. I dont know what I would do without sanga. I have such a strong faith in the sanga, we as a group, but also in each one of you as wise, mature, stable, grown up people. I will really need you all for what is going to come.
I feel it is so important that we all now try to see the reality of what has actually happened. And that is really a lot. What is happened in Austria is just the tip of the iceberg. Kausthub will need to put it all on the table, without hiding anything. He owe us this. And this is the only way we can be a satsanga as I see it. We need to know what ground we are standing on.
Rather than staying calm and keeping the faith, I would say that it is healthy to have doubts, to be furious, devastated and to react at this moment!!
But I feel it is important that we stay together and not running away. I trust that we can support each other in the sanga to try to see, understand and face the reality.
I think the only way we can help Kausthub is to be strong and demand the truth and serious steps to face the consequences of his actions. I think we have to be tough, and not pity or protect, or defend him. I feel again, then we can be a satsanga, and this will help him to do what he needs to do. I seriously think that that this is the best gift we can give him.
I am very glad to hear that Kausthub is shorting off his trip and going back to India to seek help. I feel it is the only thing he should do at the moment.
As I said, I am really exhausted, but this is how I feel at the moment. Does it makes sense to you?